mr. 2O09

finally this shitty ass year is almost over . I had a lot of ups and downs . made and lost associates . but best of all I qotta new (black& sexy ass) president .
two new bffl :) . qot my sklx . left ne only to find out I love it dere and h8 nova !
qot in trouble like every two days over bullshit . the twliqht saqa ended :'( .
and qot the best christmas ever a puppy !
my no name puppy ! :]]

`& the best `08 qift [jayden)
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new years resolutions:
1. stay focused w. school
2. do me; fuck everyone else
3. keep a low profile
4. appreciate everythinq
5. stay rude and cocky
6. stop explaninq myself . if you dont qet me the first time you aint ever qonna qet me !
7. cut down needyness .
8. collect more haters like I collect 200 in monopoly :)

iqnorance is bliss

one day ima stop shootinq myself in the foot . I'll finally qet it throuqh my thick ass skull that he dont want me and never will no matter how much I want him to . we're nothinq but friends and unfortunatly for me that's all we're ever qonna be . one day I'll stop but today's not that day . if iqnorance is bliss then ima be happy forever .

all on his dick

Kanye Omari West is the best muthafuckin rapper ever . I never really was able to understand why everyone was all on kanye dick . if you dont have his cd (not limewire or burned) you never will understand . I qot 808s & heartbreak for christmas and the shits fuckinq awesome . hiqhly recommended (4 1/2 stars from me) . idk what the fuck other people was talkin about when they was like "oh kanye coulda did better; this album sucks; stick to rappin cuz sinqin aint it" . bullshit ! my dude did his thinq on this one . dey just hatin cuz they too pussy to venture out and try somethinq new . even w/o a haircut kanye still amazinq .

unhappy.

I don't like who I've become . im not like some kinda monster or pervert or anythinq . its the fact that I am the epitome of a jit . and it really sucks donkey dick especially when you don't wanna be that way anymore . I've been actinq the same aqe for what seem like forever . I haven't qrown out of my middle school aqe I quess . I still play around too much, qet mad at dumb shit and have the nerve to hold a qrudqe w. it, etc. I hate petty qames but that's all im about . I even dress like a jit . Im not sayinq I wanna have a sleepinq beauty effect qo to sleep and wake up w. a 21 year old mind set . im 16 ½ im supposed to be a jit sometime but my sometimes never ends . I fuck up ALL the time over dumb shit and wtf I still qet qrounded I mean what the hell ?! while I just stand on the other side of this fiber qlass wall and watch, envy, and yearn to be like my old friends . I wanna be able to live! I wanna qet out the house and have fun, just vibe and stop beinq misunderstandably flaw . but some how I brouqht all this on myself and no one can fix it or help me fix it . just me by myself althouqh, that's finna be impossible w. no trust from anyone . now tell me aqain why I can't be depressed and suicidal . .

intentions

if a robber had intentions on robbinq a store but didn't, should the robber be punished for intentions ? he came in the lil chain man store w. the qun . took a deep breath in & out . proceeded to draw the qun but couldn't do it . he punk'd out . he just took a candy bar paid for it and left . how could you punish something like that ? locked up for a 18 months? take finqer prints for a just in case thinq?

*$_ContentlySimplyBrianna! :)

Im finally out of that rut and moved into I dont qive a fuck. Im content w. my life I have all the law & order, qossip qrl, weezy, and kanye anyone could ever ask for . qoin out of state for a full stress free week. I dont need a dude in my life; althouqh havinq one would be nice. buh for now my dude is currently dead and travelinq the world. last name jackson, franklin, and yes lincolin. and if a bitch waan try me everyday is a qood day cuz I'd loved ta ____ you fill in the blank ;)
ttyl cu when icu.

*$_ContentlySimplyBrianna! :)

:)

life is lookinq up ! i finally qettin out the house . I partied and sweated my stresses away . I still wanna kill myself buh just for the fun of it now . Im still tryna leave this lame ass sckool and its workinq :)

its like they were talkinq ta me

*damn I look qood and can't nobody freak like I could yeh ok I qot a little fat buh my shorty tell me he like it like that .

*im fresh dressed like a million bucks qot the louis v qoqqles emilio pumps w. the qucci bra 36c cup both middle finqers up cuz I don qive 2 fucks and im fresh!
_&*remy ma.

*want a description? her body's sickeninq I can be her prescription I can be her physician, sexual healinq .
_&*weezy f. babyy

I

I tend to be sinqle minded to thee point of recklessness

I want sex, sincerity, and searinq intelliqence

and just fiqured out im addicted to pain .
the exquisite pain of lovinq someone detainable of love .

just one of dem days .

some people take my kindness fa weakness .
weak I am not .
compassionate I do try ta be .
I always be on point like a number 2 pencil
so don't try me .
rite now im at that endinq point .
it says "Welcome ta Hell"


[btw]
just cuz yu know my name don't mean yu know me .
just cuz yu see me don't mean yu feel my emotions .
so next time yu qet the urqe ta come approach me abt my shit; don't!
unless I ask fa yur help or opinion
just leave me alone

my life isnt hard. I dont have to prostitute to eat . I've never been shot at, never lost anyone close to me from a bullet or qanq violence, or have any domestic abuse qoin on . so what's wronq w. me ? why am I so depressed all the time ? maybe the problem is I have no problem . my life is ridiculously borinq ! there's absolutely no excitment or anythinq . if I died rite now no one would remember me past the 7th day or have anythinq to say abt me I've never done anythinq qreat or amazinq . I cry at a minimum of 3 times a week, qet a miqraine twice, and stay depressed 24/7 . sometimes I honestly wish I could just die to let the pain subside and reside here on earth to be a burden for others while I qo to Heaven or Hell . worst thinq my mom is more clueless than Billy from Billy and Mandy . or she just doesnt care . I feel like im locked up in some luxury prison . Im beinq treated less than my aqe and dont know why . I hate the fact that my mom is so carinq ! I really do envy people my aqe who have what I want . nevermind, the fact if they realize it or not . fuck ! I hate her ! and myself . damn I wanna die . . . I wanna die . I wanna die . I wanna die . I wanna die . I wanna die . I wanna die . I wanna die . fuck.

nvr aqain.

I started lettin him pick at the bricks I built ta surround my heart . nvr aqain will I make that mistake . ima just do me until I Lord decides my wrk here on earth is done and its time fa me ta come on home . nvr will I say that 8 letter phrase, those 3 little words that have 1 huqe meaninq . unless its my family . and we aint family til I qetta micro pave diamond cut rinq permanently attached ta my left rinq finqer . don qet me wronq I aint sayin im not capable of love or I refuse to allow myself to be loved . buh then aqain that's what that wall is for so maybe I am . all I know rite now is I don love a damn person except me and my family . keep this thouqht from me ta yu inqraved in yur mind:

fuck you.

bascially it better look like this or better

just ta let yu knw

I love pito .

SimplyBrianna. and that's all I can be

I wanna fall in love so hard it makes my head hurt &+ I don wanna anyone ta want us together just so we can show them how strong we are .

I tend to have this love/hate relationship w. my fam esp. my mom .

I wanna have an intelligent conversation w. a strong mccain supporter 2 find out why they support em .

(attitude]--real rude like fuck it!

I have this huge crazy obsession w. lil wayne and I saw him and cried!

I love white boys and don c them issue y black qet upset w. me cuz of it .

always gatorade, water, and tea .

love cool nov. days watching law&order and eatin cookie douqh ice cream w. the bf

secrets tickle me pink!

I try to txt proper & correct buh im not too good at that .

I AM A BLACK FEMALE THAT CAN SWIM!

lingerie is overrated my dude can be satified w. me ina tee and boy shorts .

intelligent conversations intrigue me.

planning ta qo ta columbia college in chi-town ta make something of myself cuz . . .

money makes me cum ;)

so conceited and suicidal so yes bih I believe im amazinq and gorgeous den ima jump off a bridge.

and that's a rap.

lost the best thinq

so im sittin here thinkin abt how I let the best thinq happen ta me slip between my finqers like water .
thee <3 belonqs to: ...?
a.r.s.(11.12.]
yehh I still love em ; evn doe dha feelin aint mutual .
and it hurts like hell :'(
I thouqht we shared a kinda intimacy not many shared . not sexually buh emotionally . I've nvr expressed my feelinqs (cried] in front of anyone other den mom except him . just thinkin of him qave me butterflies and still do . buh he says thee exact opposite . . . so what to do ? yu tell me.

--SimplyBrianna.

qold diqqer .

a qold diqqer knows it takes moolah ta qet moolah . so she is smooth w. her hustle . she looks and acts like money . therefore she will attract more money ! she knows how to carry herself when she's around money . she couldn't care less what another female think and wouldn't qet cauqht beqqin if her life depended on it . a qold diqqer qot responsiblities and aint qot time to sell herself fantasies . time is money .
so is GreedyBrianna a qold diqqer ?!?!
lemme answer dat fa yu, sure is .
;)

lonely queen .

just a lonely queen in search of her kinq . she doesn't require much just ta some1 ta want her, hold her, caress her, put a smile on her face once ina while and satify her every need on dem l8 nites instead of holdin dha pillow close sobbin sliently .

now why do i have this ?

okk so i dont even know why i have a bloq like im an actual writer or some creative person . but i quess i just have alot on my mind w. no one to talk to . i have no friends b'cuz personally i believe friends; hell just the word alone is so overated . the meaninq of friend is one attached to another by affection or esteem . but in the real world a friend is anyone you talk to lol . thank God i dont live there (i reside on an unknown planet of my own] but for me i define friend as someone i can "trust" and i have no one i can trust so i'll just put all in feelinqs that i wish i could express to a friend here . . .

I run .

I run.
I run from my fears, myself, my troubles, past, present and future .wen I run I feel invincible and powerful . nothing can stop me
all hail to me !
howevr, I also run b'cuz im scared; I run from the fears that chase me .they run after me until I can run no more .
I run from myself; I don't really knw why tho . maybe cuz I don't like the person I c wen I look in the mirror .or maybe b'cuz I am my fear . I am the fear ic wen I think of my future of being able to run no more wen I need it most.
or wen I dwell on the past and c all the mistakes I've made; those of which no one has forgiven me for . . not evn myself.
I run b'cuz I am invincible and powerful but mainly b'cuz im scared.