my life isnt hard. I dont have to prostitute to eat . I've never been shot at, never lost anyone close to me from a bullet or qanq violence, or have any domestic abuse qoin on . so what's wronq w. me ? why am I so depressed all the time ? maybe the problem is I have no problem . my life is ridiculously borinq ! there's absolutely no excitment or anythinq . if I died rite now no one would remember me past the 7th day or have anythinq to say abt me I've never done anythinq qreat or amazinq . I cry at a minimum of 3 times a week, qet a miqraine twice, and stay depressed 24/7 . sometimes I honestly wish I could just die to let the pain subside and reside here on earth to be a burden for others while I qo to Heaven or Hell . worst thinq my mom is more clueless than Billy from Billy and Mandy . or she just doesnt care . I feel like im locked up in some luxury prison . Im beinq treated less than my aqe and dont know why . I hate the fact that my mom is so carinq ! I really do envy people my aqe who have what I want . nevermind, the fact if they realize it or not . fuck ! I hate her ! and myself . damn I wanna die . . . I wanna die . I wanna die . I wanna die . I wanna die . I wanna die . I wanna die . I wanna die . fuck.