scream everything

AHHHH FUCK VERNON TYRONE "CHABO" BURROUGHS !!!! BITCH ASS FUCK ASS NIGGA . THIS NIGGA RIGHT HERE IS THE MAIN REASON I DELETED MY FACEBOOK & JUST SAID FUCK NIGGAS ALTOGETHER SMH , STUPID ASS LIL DICK ASS BITCH !!!!!!!!!!!

My Christmas

every year i go to gainesville/hawthorne, fl for christmas . usually its crazy w. my country bouggie ass . always gettin belligerently drunk and what not, its ridiculous but i love em . although, this year was different.. no drunken family members or anything . i loved it ! :)

CAM

ur a liar, just like the rest of them ! all of them .
FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING LIAR !!!!

Saying Good-Bye Is Always The Hardest Thing To Do...

i hate niggas that lie . they want you to be completely and totoally honest w. them at all time but everyone know they cant handle that type of information, esp from me. or my favorite line of all time (after a break up) they feel like we could be "besties" and they wanna call you they best friend knowing its a damn lie, talkin bout "oh you know you my baby you can talk to me about anything"..

NIGGA FUCK YOU..!!!!!

dont you dare step to my face, get in my inbox, call my phone and waste my life mintues w. some fuckery like that . we both know thats straight B U L L S H I T ! and just know i could never respect you or take you seriously after you step to me w. some fuckery bullshit like that because B dont play that . but since you wanna know the truth oh so bad, "bestie" here it is:

I loved you, I never thought I'd see the day where we wouldn't be close, in love, or anything of that nature . Even though I spent only 3 months w. you I could honestly say I've never been happier . it was like you completed me but now its like you lied to me cuz ur w. her, I mean dont get me wrong I'm completely and whole-heartedly happy for you, like ginuinely happy from the bottom of my heart . but if you only knew how bad that happiness hurt . its kills me to see you w. another person, everytime I think of you I think of the moments we spent together . like when we went to see inception and we thought the shit was finna suck from like the opening credits or afterwards when we went to the beach, when we just sat on my porch and vibed looking at the stars, at the bank when you had to get ur credit straight or whatever and the dude thought i was ur jit lmao, or even when i pissed you off memorial day weekend on south beach. or how about this, even before I ever met you when you still at school and we was just talkin I personally made you a birthday card & gave you $$$ and sent it to you. I could go on forever butttt.. I wont! I loved every moment but now its like none of that ever happened . its like you replaced me w. her & everytime i get on facebook and i see "i love you" its like a stab in the heart and just confirms how i feel . Aug 9, 2010 was the day you went back to school and the first time i cried my eyes out because of you. I cried when you stopped calling me, when you told me you found someone else, when you used me to pay ur bill to talk to her (fuckery btw), when I saw again for the first time in months. but for what ? crying aint do shit but make my lashes come off . its hard tryna get over you but I'm doing it. I wish we could be friends but it hurts too much to see you w. someone else so just know I will always love you, be happy for you, and hope for the best (whether we keep in touch or not)...

Resolutions

-more piercings & tattoos
-no sex [unless w. bf or gf]
-better grades in school
-max 3 bfs
-job all year ($$$$$]

-cut back on shopping
-get a thea.. fuck it, nvm
-stop being so friendly (dont need no more of them fuckers]
-quit everyone w. the fuckery
-treat my mom to a vacation in the summer

_*make me happy.

I need do some high yoga .

[spongebob voice] Im ready . Depression .

So today grades was due & i failed everything . even more depressing i wasn't even knocked up then & now im havin Money or Aaliyah idkk how the F this is gon work . all i wanna do is cry & i cant even do that cuz i got my lashes done !

plus this duck ass nigga got me stressin & feenin fa blunt and shit . smh finna make me blow somebody & drop out :"(


[the future]

Im Too Excited .

Ugh . Im so ready to just get gone ! Im sooo fed up w. tally & everyone in it . Im ready fa the fast lane again, the real niggas & super thick bitches, & lets not forget the fye ass Mary Jane !




Home Here I Come<3








[However:: I will miss my cookie, Corey. I <333 him alot*]

Crazy .

I hate when one minute I'm perfectly fine, live, eveythin all hunky dory and the next I'm stressed out, on the verge of crying, & depressed . I hate feeling & being like this . half the time i dont know what the hell my problem is but this time i know
its a boy [funny thing is im gay] but i like him alot and i aint even know him a week . i feel like we've known each other forever & all i wanna do is be w. him; i think about him as soon as i wake up & go to sleep . if i could dream he'd be in it too
to be completely honest, it scares the shit outta me . i never feel like this & i just dont know how to act . i feel crazy [*high guy thought: maybe this is what beyonce was talkin about in her "crazy in love"] like mann forreal i just dont know . im confused . i kinda wish he knew but im glad he doesnt, he may take advantage of it. even though he dont seen like it... they never do.









smh . im gonna go blow o_O

My Loves ; iPod on Repeat

It's A Boy/Girl !!!!

So many of us young girls are getting pregnant. So many in fact MTV made a show about it. I feel its a shame, half of us don't even love the person we got knocked up by..
our bodies aren't even fully capable for this type of pressure which is why premie, still born, and miscarriages are through the roof . its extremely hard to be a single parent now a day & i give the fullest respect and honor to anyone has done it. I'm a freshman in college & I've seen sooooo many pregnant girls its crazy .
I couldn't imagine being in school AND a mom . not to mention its simply impossible to be a mom, student, & hold a job. Two Times Fa The BabyMomma's

S/N: I'm Pregnant.

Respect My Gay..bitch!

Dear God

Dear God,
I know I've screwed up a lot but please forgive me & guide me to do right . I'm 17 years old w. enough mistakes to make Jezebel look sanctified . I don't really know what exactly what I'm asking for but I do know that I need guidance and for my eyes, heart, and mind to be more lucid . Also please help me to be kinder to people .

P.S. Thank you for everything you've done and will do for me .

I love you .
Amen

Weekly Edition of Stupid .

You know, sometimes I just have to shake my effing head at the people of this world. Now, I’m all for an ‘ARTISTIC’, thoughtful, discreet tattoo on a lady. You know, the cute little butterfly on the ankle, or the child’s name on her shoulder, written in a pretty calligraphic script…and even an occasional tramp stamp. But this shit right here? this shit right here ni99a?



Dumb ass tattoo on brawd's chest
This shit right here is just down right STUPID!!! Stupid with a capital STU!!!! Yo Man…WTF??? Don’t you have any dignity? I guess you plan on wearing turtle neck sweaters for the rest of your pitiful ass life, huh? Lawd ha’ mercy. Save the kids!

Cara Catlin♥

On Saturday nite, 1.23.10, a really good friend of mine died wayy too urly . Cara Catlin . She was on her way to get something to eat w. her friend -& stepsister . a cop was goin 70, 80mph w. no warning and sliced the back end of the car off where she was sitting . she flew out the window; hit her head on another car, where she was dragged . it kills me to know that she was just 14 -& so quick she's gone, while the cop just has to do desk work until further notice . I loved her so much . I could go on for days just talking about her and I didn't even know her that long ... the only two things that make me feel better is knowing that God blessed me w. the chance to know her and that she's in a better place . no more pain; suffering; drama . nothing , just peace☮ .


damn ima miss her :'(

slackin' !!!

WOOOOOOW ! Alrite so I def just realized that last post, the one about weezy, was my first post of the year . I been super busy though so lets play catch-up . Anyhoo its muthafkn 2010 ! And I'm too excited . Every New Year everyone's usually into that "New year, new me" bullshit . My motto is "New Year, same me" fk all that change shit . However, I think Ima hope on that band-wagon this year . I mean, finally, turn 18; graduate; get a car; move OUT!!!; eveything .


future blogs will be better _-& on point . duce!

wise words from wayne .

Somewhere inbetween all the mind games, lies, and seduction, I fell for you.
Somewhere inbetween all the broken promises, manipulation and heartache, i got
over you. but i guess i fibbed a few times too, Rememeber all those times i swore i
needed you? Well consider them lies cause babe, here i am without you and I
survived.