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i love corey . not in love - just love. although i think i hurt his feelings today when i told him that i aint trust him & i was depressed cuz of him -- it -- both . i really aint mean to hurt him & it never even crossed my mind that it would; which is pretty selfish of myself if i might say so :(
i told him before that it would be hard cuz he's literally exactly like my x and is difficult to go down the same road twice when you've already gotten hurt before . and it didn't help that he's CONSTANTLY textin like it fucking kills me ! i literally just wanna scream, punch him dead in the face, and yell
"WHO THE FUCK RU ALWAYS TEXTING ?! LIKE SERIOUSLY I SHOULD BE THE ONLY ONE YOUR TEXTIN BUT I UNDERSTAND YOU GOT FRIENDS -i dont like it, but i understand it- BUT MUST YOU ALWAYS TEXT IN FRONT OF ME ?!
even at 3 in the fucking morning he's texting !!!!!!!!!! and i know for a fact that unless he's gay, niggas dont text niggas constantly at 3am ! and of course his arm is behind my head and i see a text to some female
"so what makes you happy"
why the fuck do you care ?! -sigh maybe im trippin but i cant help it . its not like i wanna be this way i just-- idkk . if i aint care or love him so much it woulda been whatever but its like
im wearing my heart on my sleeve _& idkk how to act or feel .